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"I have been bent and broken but — I hope — into a better shape." —Charles Dickens, black picnics skies and blankets, Chim chiminey, Holding back the splat, Keep an eye on your mental elf, Perpetual pathopoeia, To be in England in the summertime With my love Close to the edge, Waiting for the night to fall when everything is bearable
A Clean Sweep
On darker days her toes will curl,
Flex, flare, then slowly (but surely) they fasten
One by one with careful measure —
As though aiming to decipher
Some primordial geological message
Left in Braille for her alone
Along the vertiginous edge of the cliff —
Brushing every crenel with single-minded pains.
Each one of those Lilliputian market visitors
Bites furiously into the arid ground,
Peering over the scarred, sagacious scarp
As pieces of the infirma terror
Begin to crumble away — the mucky scree:
A feculent mire of diminishing, dialectic, detritus.
First to her left (one . . .), then to her right (two . . .),
The pillars collapse into tumbling, grey streams.
And then comes the protracted sit-in — downtime.
For an indeterminable period yawns ahead
As we both settle down to wait, to ascertain
If today is the day when centre shall join them,
And make three the black magic number:
The plunging entrance to a rather melanoid party.
The trees on these plains are swayed by no winds;
This is the eye of the tornado;
The last tangible step into the cerulean boondocks blues.
A needle wavers carelessly over a gauge, oscillating
Between cardinal red and the give-a-fuck flatlands.
Perpetually running on a road marked empty
She has just one solitary click left in the tank.
Her shoulders are bared, mislocated, truncated,
Devoid of ailerons in this airless space.
Two ragged stumps autonomously a-heaving;
I watch her subconsciously open and close them.
An old habit — the inbuilt reflex of a life long dead.
All gone now, its puckered remains alone on show;
Translucent, tracing paper tigers upon epidermis.
Her body is a map of forever,
Overlain with ancient pathways of scars to the stars.
Two webbed, pallid ladders
Hang limp from deltoids to static spine.
Blinding white lines sear through her mind.
So many battles (the dawn never comes . . .).
So many wars (there is no end to the day . . .).
You win some.
You loathsome.
I’ve watched her escape myriad times,
My relief only sanctioned
Once she’s swiftly bolted;
Dashed, crashed and smashed through
Thick, prismatically capacious glass above,
Sailing away, straight as a die, heavenward,
Off into the clouds — safe, smiling once again.
Not a single backwards glance.
Wearily, I pick up the old wooden broom
And begin once again
Sweeping off the world’s edge
All remnants of the chaos
She has left in her fractured wake,
Ensuring an immaculate slate
Awaits her next, predestined arrival.
It’s a dirty job, but someone’s gotta do it.
You win some.
You loathsome.
I saw what you did there, you devilishly clever thing.
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Deliciously clever Esme 😎
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I’ll take ‘delicious’ most happily Val, thank you!
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Shady shades suit you E ❣️
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That’s quite cheeky. I like it.
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Esme-eyed, I’m mesmerized.
“You win some.
You loathsome.”
You do.
Me too.
Vivid scene of the anthropocene
“A feculent mire of diminishing, dialectic, detritus”
Dear diary,
Dire.
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Messing with yer eyes is to mesmerize methinks Bill, and glad I am to have done so dear direy dearie diary.
Thank you good sir!
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Sometimes I feel like I am watching the clouds from the ground…like I can see how beautiful they are, but my grounded brain doesn’t allow me to float amongst them fully. Always enchanting!
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Every one of my Cloudy followers is by nature already flying higher than your average human, besides which I need some of you to reach the ground or I’ll never get my Jack Daniels delivered.
Hahahahaha.
Earnestly Kris — thank you from the heart for that comment, this is a dark piece – the light comes from you, the readers who enjoy it, make it pay it’s way with a silvery lining.
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Me too. Feet of clay I’m afraid, but I like the music. 🙂
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Solid and satisfying.
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One can ask for no more than those two components of a Thursday evening sir.
Thank you Ben.
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Ahh, my my my, you trickster you. My Lady, you are such a fabulous writer and poet! This was just lovely. (big warm smile up to Her Cloudiness)
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Esme is known far, wide, close too and slim for her trickiness – turns into a raven and flies three times counter clock-wise around his head -but it’s all just rumour really. – grins
I’m very pleased to find out you enjoyed the wordage – fabulous writer and poet no less! Very kind of you to say so Professor.
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We do have to take care of ourselves, don’t we? We wander and return, are both here and there. Thankfully we are each of us tethered to an anonymous sky, have recourse to turning history inside out with the reshaping of self–we can package the world inside frames of our invention, only to shatter the glass laid on top, only to remember the boundless, only to reunite, to touch earth and the cool night.
Your writing here is so dense with invention it startles, Esme. Reading this leaves me feeling as I do looking out into a wilderness. There is too much to say, too little skill on my part to say it. There is the sense, even, that if I feel this way then I must know what you mean even if I don’t quite. In autumn the leaves will fall from this scene. The clouds will soar above naked limbs. There are silences drawn out from your dancing lines here that don’t seem to end.
Utterly lovely!
Michael
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Your comment is better than my poem Michael. Stop doing that please. laughs a lot
Actually you’ve hit the proverbial nail on the head with your first paragraph; we need to take care of ourselves, our sanity, brush up after the fallout that will inevitably occur in life, sweep it off the edge, never under the carpet though. And more — only we know just how far we have fallen in the past – how much farther we fear may be an option in the future too. The shaping of the ‘self’ is ours alone to handle, billions of janitors with only one job to do, and most of them are sat in a store cupboard in the brain having a sneaky fag and reading a copy of the Beano when they need to be grabbing a broom and heading off to make sure everything out there is ticking along.
Being aware is all we have within, and it is the greatest tool in the universe. If you are . . . aware of it that is. – beams
I’m absolutely blown away by you words regarding my penning Michael, as speechless as I get.
‘There are silences drawn out from your dancing lines here that don’t seem to end.’ – Sublime. ‘Utterly lovely!’ Thank you from the heart.
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What Michael Said.
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shakes his hand warmly, then gives him a tight hug.
Thank you masodo. You’ve been on this Cloud dancer’s journey for longer than most, and I’m very glad you still enjoy my wordage.
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More and more – as it turns out.
Hugging you back (just a little too tight and a wee bit too long for absolute comfort) and meaning it 🙂
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Squeaks! Hahahaha, thank you sir. That’s a great compliment.
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What an amazing reply. It could be a blogpost unto itself.
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I might fill this space with superlatives regarding your writing. I sit here, amazed and humbled beyond my descriptive powers.
Also, I was reminded while engaged in the reading, there is rum. 🥃
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You get it Robert, and I’m very pleased you do. Many thanks for telling me what you think so wonderfully by commission, I see your rum, and raise you a Jack Daniels with a curtsy of appreciation for your words. ❤
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“Between cardinal red and the give-a-fuck flatlands.” Sounds like a metaphor for life some days … mine too. Your mastery of words is sublime, though I admit I do occasionally get lost in an attempting to solidify origins 😉 Sending you love, dear esme ❤
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“Your mastery of words is sublime” – One gob-smacked Esme shaking your hand. Thank you dear Bela. ❤
“though I admit I do occasionally get lost in an attempting to solidify origins” – Me too. The acronym WTFAYOA springs to mind – laughs – Consciousness, awareness, the acknowledgement of ‘self’, whilst looking into the darkest (or lightest) corners we have within us doesn’t always translate easily upon the Cloud, I’m ‘aware’ of that – grins – however if the reader finds themselves in there, or see others they recognise in some fashion, I’ve done the best I could hope for.
Esme Cloud returning the love to Bela along with a huge sunflower in a tall, slim glass vase
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🌻🌹🌺 Thank you, lovely.
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Ooooo, Esme! Ya know I love this one! Another right up my alley. 🙂
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And what a fine alley it is sir! Hahahaha. Thank you Fears, I like eliciting a good ‘Ooooo’!
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