This has such a silky air of seduction about it. He transports you to somewhere completely private, a whispering gallery of intimacy, with such success you become a trinity; firstly the voyeur watching from the shadows, then he, slowly, full of determined delectation, opening up his prize, and also she, her chest tight, breathy, savouring each opening of her corsets clasps. It is one of my favourite poems and executed to perfection.
First, her tippet made of tulle,
easily lifted off her shoulders and laid
on the back of a wooden chair.And her bonnet,
the bow undone with a light forward pull.
Then the long white dress, a more
complicated matter with mother-of-pearl
buttons down the back,
so tiny and numerous that it takes forever
before my hands can part the fabric,
like a swimmer’s dividing water,
and slip inside.
You will want to know
that she was standing
by an open window in an upstairs bedroom,
motionless, a little wide-eyed,
looking out at the orchard below,
the white dress puddled at her feet
on the wide-board, hardwood floor.
The complexity of women’s undergarments
in nineteenth-century America
is not to be waved off,
and I proceeded like a polar explorer
through clips, clasps, and moorings,
catches, straps, and whalebone stays,
sailing toward the iceberg of her nakedness.
Later, I wrote in a notebook
it was like riding a swan into the night,
but, of course, I cannot tell you everything –
the way she closed her eyes to the orchard,
how her hair tumbled free of its pins,
how there were sudden dashes
whenever we spoke.
What I can tell you is
it was terribly quiet in Amherst
that Sabbath afternoon,
nothing but a carriage passing the house,
a fly buzzing in a windowpane.
So I could plainly hear her inhale
when I undid the very top
hook-and-eye fastener of her corset
and I could hear her sigh when finally it was unloosed,
the way some readers sigh when they realize
that Hope has feathers,
that reason is a plank,
that life is a loaded gun
that looks right at you with a yellow eye.
Have I ever told you of the time I spent employed as Ms. Dickinson’s Gardener? Oh, what times we had, her in the kitchen reciting away like mad and me pulling weeds and trimming wayward branches! I have no memory of any Billy Collins though. There was a Billy in town, lived with a man name of Canyon Pete I believe, the two of them always bickering night and day, but his last name wasn’t Collins, no, it wasn’t Collins, I’m sure of that. Can’t say I remember anyone by that name ever visiting Ms. Dickinson’s. Strange.
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Yes you have, indeed we had a small discourse on a post you wrote on the very subject, whence I gave you a link to this poem. I forgive you for not recalling such a memorable exchange as you are the President and Founder and a busy man with his finger many pies, pies that may have spies in, along with all the autograph signing and singing in the bath with your hat on) so taking all that into account…. I shan’t be releasing the hounds or anything.
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I did indeed remember the discourse! It was only for reasons, I cannot possibly be expected to go into, not now, or ever, that I pretended to be unaware of our earlier conversation. I am truly pleased, or, I mean, relieved, yes, relieved, that you will not be releasing the hounds, but I do appreciate your use of “shan’t”, it has made it all well worth it, thank you
– The President and Founder
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Uhuh. Sure you did. I don’t doubt that for a second. And you are as ever, very welcome.
Cheerio mate!
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Great imagery! 🙂
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It is very, very good isn’t it? 😀
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It really is very sad I think; a melancholy hidden knowingly in eroticism. A story of what could have been for her, had she not suffered psychologically as she did. As you must know Esme, Dickinson was reluctant to leave her bedroom in later life, and even when her father’s funeral was conducted there in the hallway of the family home, she remained listening via her bedroom door which she kept ajar for that purpose. It seems her main source of affection was her dog Carlo, a companion for sixteen years. Very sad, though a wonderful and powerful piece of work, and I am glad to be introduced to it.
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I hadn’t thought of it as so, though the ending points to that for sure. I know the tragedy of her mind you, she’s one of my absolute favourite poets. I don’t find I like all her work at all either, but when it hits the spot is is as though I am part-Emily, part-Esme. (The same is true of Dorothy Parker, though I enjoy all of her words.) To me it reads as a gift he’s giving her, the writer billy Collins; he’s setting her free from the constraints she was wrapped in all her life, and giving her something she craved very much – to be adored, to be loved. She’s already a gifted clever writer, he makes her desired, in his eyes, and ours too. She loved someone she could never be with, and I’m not sure how much the love was reciprocated, but it was to some extent from what I can gather. She knew the meaning of longing in its most intense guise. Her sigh is the key. Such a long, long sigh one senses; finally set free.
I’m glad you like it Hariod. It’s lovely.
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Oh yes, certainly a gift from the author to her, yet sadly one of a kind she seldom if ever received from any source as far as I can ascertain, and which for me is where the melancholia of the piece is derived. I am not an interpreter of poetry though, so your reflections are likely more accurate altogether, particularly given your fondness towards the subject’s work. It seems the author is making it clear that he is travelling back in time imaginatively to offer his gift – negotiating the lady’s arcane wardrobe encumbrances – more for the sake of giving than any anticipated receiving. What do you think is meant by the closing words, ‘yellow eye’?
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I think he means it’s jaundiced.
“life is a loaded gun
that looks right at you with a yellow eye.”
bitter, filled with resentment, untrue and cannot be trusted.
esme thoughful upon the Cloud
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So obvious now you say it. Thanks. H ❤
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We aim to please here on the Cloud aitch. – smiles ❤
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